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Sunday, October 30, 2005

haiss...joanna is gonna miss esther lots lots..haiss..sure will de..cux is lyk she's leaving for 3years ba..haiss..
sae wont leave but confirm is bluff me de loh...haiss...sad sad sad!!!i will cherish her for this 59 daes de!!
but is lyk hais,time passes so fast de lo.haiss..59 daes super fast de can..haiss!!!
but the 36mth wouldnt be fast canx.haiss cux is lyk,without her by my side loim gonna be lonely de.
how am i goin to keep life goin for the next 3 years if she is gone?haiss i dunno.i reali dunno..
esther ye,you gotta miss me lots ok?haiss cux i wil sure miss u more den anything de..haiss...
59 daes more left to go?what can i do leh?hais cux i noe she sure spend times with her frens de..haiss..
i dun even think i stand a place in her heart,but haiss..she spend a big portion in my heart lo.haiss..
can yew just let me send you off?haiss,i promise tt on the dae itself,i will not cry infront of yew de..
i will onli cry wen u left.i reali promise,.hais,pls pls pls let me send yew off..if not i wil sure be super sad..
all i ask is for yew to let me send u off on that dae itself.can u just grant this wish?haiss....
if not the next three years,life would be tough for me to go on....haiss..i reali will let yew go de..hais..
i wont ask yew to stay haiss cux its good for yew cux u goin to study..haiss...
promise to take good care of urself.okie??haiss...i will confirm miss yew.

tweny8 still cant forgett seventy9

watermelon lurve honeydew

but does she still lyks me?pls tell me a ans.before its too late.

you wont get to see those tears ive shed for you.i swear.

~leave with no regrets at all~

joanna love esther!!!!!!!but she dun luv me. =[

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1:32 AM

life has been kind of lonely for me nowadays.i cried myself to sleep.haiss..hmmm well,how do i feel?actualli i feel kind of lonely...i felt tt everyone's leavin my side now.haiss...
hais..is like.haiss...my class separatin le..haiss..no longer togeher anymore..haiss on fridae the whole class cry till lyk wad can haiss..cux of the powerpoint.hmmm anywae,2/4 2005 rox forever.we are lyk so damn the close can.super united de..haiss...for the creative competition,didnt expect s to get in 2nd can.hais..so surprise lor..cux our class wouldnt be so good de can..hais..anywae two four simply rox...
hmmm haiss,well another thing is tt haiss...heard from esther tat she will be migratin to perth soon lo.haiss i super sad canx haiss...cux i ..haiya i dunno why oso la hais..sae le wanna cry lo..haiss..maybe she will think tt i am just a cry baby can hais but actualli i reali super sad abt tt can haiss..how shld i explain those sadness leh?hmmx i oso dunno.reali dunno lo..haiss...cant stop thinkin abt it canx hais..hmmm well,left with 59 daes more...haiss...
hass been kind of lonely..haiss..hope can cherish her durin this 59 daes lo..but dun think she would even care abt me can haiss...

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1:01 AM

*************** Wednesday, October 26, 2005

here to blog...hmmm everythin's fine now but den haiyo...haiss she will be leavin le lor..hais..she migratin to perth canx..hai wha yesterdae tok to her on the phone i cant stop cryin can hais maybe its because of this tt todae my mood wasnt too good ba den even said janelle n scolded sarah lo..hai sorri..well,now tt FELICIA SEE next to me haiyo she veri wad leh..read..haiyo den dun wan write liao la!!!

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3:48 AM

*************** Saturday, October 22, 2005

hmmm lets talk abt fridae.well,took back results. i tink over 7 i onli manage to pass 2 ba hais..all fail by 2 marks onli canx hais...hope after moderation den i can pass it well lor..hais..

hais..den dunno la.cried lo..wen i realise i fail those main papers lo hais.den sit alone at the back of the hall can just controlin lo hais..hmmm well, den besides tt, after cumin down from hall saw *herr lo..hais den just look awa y lo.hais i rather be the first to look away den seein her back facin me lo *sobb* haiss...dun care tis le haiss...

hais...hmmm den went for rainbow.wow its a good close up reflection can hais dey sae till i cry lo..haiyo...hmmm lyk so damn the dots can alot of ppl cry oso hai den i did enjoy myself ba..shld sae it tt wae.

well den immediately went home to bathe lo..den mit germ n yuting den we go to huijie chalet haha in bus germ sae i wear till so chio oh gosh so paiseh n bhb lo me hmmm..well den hor sae mich,char,sly,adeline n zann lo...hmmm FINALLY FOUND MY WATERMELON LOLLIPOP.bought two...yeah..but watermelon now dun mean anythin to me le lo hai so sad...but its ok la hmmm anywae,had lotsa of fun inside the chalet.

i brought cigarette den we smoke.me n yuting.den germ n adeline wan den i give dem lo.i teach my fren bad can hais so guilty hmmm anywae,den we drank lotsa of heineken lo..i drank ard 3 to 4 can.almost sane but nvr la.adeline vomited den char seem so angry cux we lyk so naughty lo hai..hmmm den yu huijie n mich send char out.left me sly n germ lo.haiyo den we took two cans to drink lo.hais den sly n germ share i drink a can myself.hais is lyk i was drinkin almost cryin lo.germ noe why can haiss...den germ sane can cux we leave her there den she drink a can herself.haiyo she super sadi can tel lo.i oso super sad at tt time lo.hais..

ton at the chalet so funny can play those cards.but yupp haiyo tts all ba den todae NV even sleep can immediately go church lo..hai up life is so simple for me. yupp/ =]

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7:22 AM

*************** Thursday, October 20, 2005

hello!!!

hmmm she online now.dun even noe shld i talk to her now not..hmmm anywae,i give up le lah!!!haiyo long time ago le lo!!hmmm (ixit or am i st lyin to myself)

hais i dunnom leh..has been kinda sad nowadays leh..haiyo..who will noe leh..haiyo...stil got 10 more daes to 1mth..FASTER!! *den can..haiyo nvm.. onli germaine noe. =]

hmmm well...tml gettin back exam paper le..hmmm gonna pray hard hard loh..haiss i hope i can pass lo..hais...

hmmm whole mind is onli thinkin of *her..hais..how..hmmm gotta give up la!!!haiyo cannot cannot cannot!!hmmm but it seems to be lyk so...hard. hais..

thanks to *herr la!tt makes me treat sly so bad!!hais germaine sae me i ownself oso think so lo but hai is cant help it de. just have to blame myself. haiss.. *blame myself for loving yew haiss*
hmmm im missing yew =x. did i reali do sth sooo wrong tt yew avoid me?hais.im sorri =[

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4:20 AM

*************** Wednesday, October 19, 2005

haiss!!!give up den give up loh..haiss..aywae yew oso wont care for me de loh..so would i stil need to care?79lines cuttin soon haiss...not gonna lurve yew anymore.haiss..
hmmm anywae,dun care abt anythin le lah..haiss..if yew want to take or dun take e stars den oso nvm lo...haiss....give up give up give up lah!!!argh im onna blow up soon le lor!!!

give up on yew le lah!!

dun cum into my life ba.=[

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3:54 AM

*************** Saturday, October 15, 2005

haiss...now at library at tampines...alone..hmmm i guess i am startin to be a loner le..hmm im so tired nowadays..exams ard e corner.have been tryin to force myself to study as much as i could.but things just cannot make it..haiyo...

nowadays at home got lotsa problems happenin..have been cryin almost everydae cux of hse problems...had fights with my mum,sis,bro,grandma n daddy.eventually is evevybody lols..hais..my mum cane me just two daes ago..so biased..my sister n i even till now hasnt been on good terms with each other..haiss...wad abt my dad?i msg him yesterdae nite abt wad exactly happen n he scolded me in the end.he wanted to talk to me on the phone but i just keep avoidin it..hais.family problems sucks..it cause me to stop myself frm concentratin in studies..haiss..

yesterdae in sch 3teachers came up to me n had a 'long' talk with me...concernin my family lah..haiyo...im so stress up!!!!stress stress stress!!!!!

my health hasnt been good for this few weeks..haiss...i have been havin back pain n even stomach pain.i guess its not stomach pain..cux is on both left n right side,hais...causin me to suffer in pain =x

do i....still...lyks...her???i dunno..hais..she sae tt she have decided nt to choose anybody..my gosh tt sentence make me so sad tt dae lors..haiss...i tink its time to forget her...i must!!!

girl,im lettin yew go rite now.i guess its no point for me to hold on..im sorrie.

frm the time i knew yew(050805)yew have given me lots of joy n happiness.though sum might be

sadd tt is cause by yew,i guess,luvin u is the best thing tt eva happen.

twenty8 lurve seventy9 foreva..but shld i gif up???haiss...

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12:34 AM

*************** Thursday, October 13, 2005

This pain I feel deep inside my heart
Only happens when we are apart
Every time you walk out my door
I have never felt anything like this before
How can it be that you can do this to me
Just when I thought my heart was free
I have no idea how you did it
But it's like we are a perfect fit
Are we meant to be together
Or will you end up with another
I have so many questions for you
Are any of these feelings happening to you too
I guess only time will tell
Until then I am under your spell
Hoping one day my wish will come true
Because I have fallen for you

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1:47 AM

All I ever wanted was for you to be honest with me
The lie that you told me hurts more then you can see
We all make mistakes in our life
But this one cuts me like a knife
I trusted you as much as I could
I trusted you more then I thought I would
Now that trust has been broken
My trust was given to you like a token
How will I ever trust you again
When all I feel right now is pain
Things between us will never be the same
And I know I am not the one to blame

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1:06 AM

*************** Sunday, October 09, 2005

helo..tts my new blog..hais,kinda bored nowadaes.wow so happi!!!finally let her go le..shall nt lead her on too..hmmm abt 79 leh?maybe time to give up ba...so sad...but i cant hold on owax rite.dere's oreadi no more chemistry...yupp..

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8:17 PM

*************** Thursday, October 06, 2005

haha..yeah.finish doing jo's blog..haha.actually supposed to be esther doing it but got some problem with the stupid blog .end up i got to help..haha.okiie la tat all.

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6:41 PM

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